From the fullness of grace, we have received one blessing after another. John1:16
That's on the header for Our Life blog, and that verse in scripture is so heavy on my heart this week. For those of you that don't know a couple of months ago I discovered this notsuppossedtobethere lump. With both my sweetiepie Mom and my dear aunt both having gone through breastcancer at young ages, you can imagine what that does for the old heart when you discover such a thing. With the discovery, me and my hubster fast tracked it to the breast specialist. There the Dr did a real once over and from there I went through ultrasounds, mammograms, and MRIs. With a thankful heart, I am able to report that God laid his Mighty hand on me and I am completely fine. But that's not the entire part of the story that I want to capture here for our family and for me, to remember for years to come. I want to remember all of the little glimpses that our Mighty Lord showed me and let me hear His love every step along the way in this process.
That's on the header for Our Life blog, and that verse in scripture is so heavy on my heart this week. For those of you that don't know a couple of months ago I discovered this notsuppossedtobethere lump. With both my sweetiepie Mom and my dear aunt both having gone through breastcancer at young ages, you can imagine what that does for the old heart when you discover such a thing. With the discovery, me and my hubster fast tracked it to the breast specialist. There the Dr did a real once over and from there I went through ultrasounds, mammograms, and MRIs. With a thankful heart, I am able to report that God laid his Mighty hand on me and I am completely fine. But that's not the entire part of the story that I want to capture here for our family and for me, to remember for years to come. I want to remember all of the little glimpses that our Mighty Lord showed me and let me hear His love every step along the way in this process.
As I have stated earlier in this post, this has been a situation that I (and many) have been praying over for several months.... but just as you know it- God's timing is perfect. The real story starts when I went for the first MRI... and I laid on the MRI table, scared at the enormity of the situation. I closed my eyes and began to pray. I prayed that the right people would be on the other side of that wall reviewing my films and that the most skilled folks would be the ones that would determine what my health at that situation was. I prayed that God ensured that for me, so that I could trust that what they found or didn't find was accurate and I could move forward down whatever path that God lead me down. At that moment, the machine didn't work and the tech walked in and told me that I would need to reschedule my appointment. As I got myself up and headed to the room to get dressed and ditch that hospital gown, God let me hear.... he let me hear one of the tech's that were working my machine getting some lessons on improvement on how to preform his job. He let me hear how this gentleman had made a mistake on the setup of a previous test. That was not a coincidence.... I believe that was God showing me He heard my prayer. What an amazing God we serve that hears our prayers all the time. Not all are answered or maybe not on our timeline, but He, the Mighty Lord that breathed this world into existence, hears our prayers.
The blessings didn't stop there. I was able to see how He orchestrated and wove certain key people in my life for this experience together. How "chance" meetings or getting to know yous, really aren't chance at all. I felt the outpouring of a church family lifting us up in prayer. One blessing after another. On the day of the rescheduled MRI (at a different hospital), I again experienced that wave of emotion come over me as I headed in the tube. Their a technician shared with me afterwards her support and she gave me the name of the best surgeon she knew. She told me that "I would do fine." and instructed that I "keep putting one foot in front of the other, follow what the dr's told me, and I would do fine". She asked me if I understood what she was saying to me. Um, Yes. Normally these folks don't utter one word on what they read following your test, but for whatever reason this particular person felt so led to tell me these things. Her words led us to believe that they had seen something that was sketchy and needed addressing by a surgeon. Needless to say, the next 24hours seemed to move at a turtle's pace as I waited for those results, as my husband and I tried to sort through the emotions and heaviness of that situation. During that time, I told God that I trusted Him and should he lead me down this path, I trusted Him and I would be faithful to him. Oh, friends- how He is faithful. As I left the hospital that evening, without any rain insight, I saw a rainbow and knew that everything was going to be ok. Just as it says in Genesis: I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Genesis 9:13
The most precious thing that He did for me, was the morning following that long, restless evening- I went to get my precious girl up and out of bed. When she opened her precious green eyes, she said to me " Mommy, God loves you. He 'ill pro-tect you." Let me stop here for a moment and say, 1) our kids had no idea what was going on with my health during this time and 2) she had never said "protect" before nor really heard it that much in her 2.5 years.... so I knew, as she uttered those words to me early Tuesday morning, that was not my sweet daughter speaking- but instead that was my Heavenly Father talking to me. And I could not dream of a more precious way to hear His love for me, then coming from the voice of my little girl.
Although this time was challenging, I was able to see God at work and feel Him all around me. What an amazing experience. I can tell you with a completely thankful yet completely un -derserving heart that He is Mighty, that He hears you, and if we are just open to it, we can see Him at work all around us. Oh how He loves us.
The blessings didn't stop there. I was able to see how He orchestrated and wove certain key people in my life for this experience together. How "chance" meetings or getting to know yous, really aren't chance at all. I felt the outpouring of a church family lifting us up in prayer. One blessing after another. On the day of the rescheduled MRI (at a different hospital), I again experienced that wave of emotion come over me as I headed in the tube. Their a technician shared with me afterwards her support and she gave me the name of the best surgeon she knew. She told me that "I would do fine." and instructed that I "keep putting one foot in front of the other, follow what the dr's told me, and I would do fine". She asked me if I understood what she was saying to me. Um, Yes. Normally these folks don't utter one word on what they read following your test, but for whatever reason this particular person felt so led to tell me these things. Her words led us to believe that they had seen something that was sketchy and needed addressing by a surgeon. Needless to say, the next 24hours seemed to move at a turtle's pace as I waited for those results, as my husband and I tried to sort through the emotions and heaviness of that situation. During that time, I told God that I trusted Him and should he lead me down this path, I trusted Him and I would be faithful to him. Oh, friends- how He is faithful. As I left the hospital that evening, without any rain insight, I saw a rainbow and knew that everything was going to be ok. Just as it says in Genesis: I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Genesis 9:13
The most precious thing that He did for me, was the morning following that long, restless evening- I went to get my precious girl up and out of bed. When she opened her precious green eyes, she said to me " Mommy, God loves you. He 'ill pro-tect you." Let me stop here for a moment and say, 1) our kids had no idea what was going on with my health during this time and 2) she had never said "protect" before nor really heard it that much in her 2.5 years.... so I knew, as she uttered those words to me early Tuesday morning, that was not my sweet daughter speaking- but instead that was my Heavenly Father talking to me. And I could not dream of a more precious way to hear His love for me, then coming from the voice of my little girl.
Although this time was challenging, I was able to see God at work and feel Him all around me. What an amazing experience. I can tell you with a completely thankful yet completely un -derserving heart that He is Mighty, that He hears you, and if we are just open to it, we can see Him at work all around us. Oh how He loves us.
Enjoyed reading your post, Kristin! It's so neat how God works in such personal ways to reveal Himself to us. It was so encouraging to read about the ways He has been working in your life recently! Thanks for sharing!
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